Recently I have been thinking a lot about loneliness.

I have been thinking about how loneliness can be knowing people, either IRL or online, but having an awful feeling that if you voiced your opinions on a topic, everyone would turn against you. So, you’re silent, all the time. Silent and lonely.

And that is just sad.

Perhaps it is just me. I don’t really know what it means to have friendships that go deep enough where there is no judgement, and you can discuss things freely without fear. I have only known fear in my friendships, fear of causing offense, fear of triggering anger and hatred, fear of causing pain. I do not know if I’d call that friendship.

All I can say is I am grateful for my family.

Sure, sometimes I feel like a complete alien amongst them, but, at least I’m their alien.